Schoolbag in hand...

Schoolbag in hand, she leaves home in the early morning
Waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile
I watch her go with a surge of that well-known sadness
And I have to sit down for a while
The feeling that I'm losing her forever
And without really entering her world
I'm glad whenever I can share her laughter
That funny little girl

Slipping through my fingers all the time
I try to capture every minute
The feeling in it
Slipping through my fingers all the time
Do I really see what's in her mind
Each time I think I'm close to knowing
She keeps on growing
Slipping through my fingers all the time

Sleep in our eyes, her and me at the breakfast table
Barely awake, I let precious time go by
Then when she's gone there's that odd melancholy feeling
And a sense of guilt I can't deny

What happened to the wonderful adventures
The places I had planned for us to go
Well, some of that we did but most we didn't
And why I just don't know

Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture
And save it from the funny tricks of time
Slipping through my fingers...

Schoolbag in hand she leaves home in the early morning
Waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile...

Once upon a Spa

The best Spa getaway ever was the day my sister and I took my Aunt to Bayete Spa on the way to Hennopsmeer somewhere west of Pretoria.



First we kind of kidnapped her. She did not know where we were taking her. My sister and I were gigling away while my aunt guessed where we could be off to, but to no avail. But that is not where the surprised ended. The Spa was also hidden from the main road. You had to drive into a gate and then into a ditch with lots of trees and then only you would stop in front of the main building.

She was so surprised. This is my favourate picture of her. A picture does tell a thousand words. It looks like she is in thought.



It was a magical day. We wanted to say thank you. She let us in under her wing when Mom died and helped to ease the pain of the 2nd big shock when our Stepmom was introduced shortly after. She has never been judgemental. We on the other hand have been.



On the left is my aunt with my sister in the middle. My head is cut off. LOL.
We look happy in the pictures.

Christmas 2010

Every year we (my sister and I) try to make this a special time for the family. I miss my Mom who died 7 years ago a month before Christmas, we celebrate her life and hold on to the good memories. And then there is my Dad who I still have a chance to reconcile with but as always the timing sucks.

I remember every single Christmas since I was 3. Today I realized that I am truely blessed.

Every Christmas in my life was special, including this one.

Blogging again...for now

Has it been 6 months? Life got a little busy I guess. I am still trying to settle in to the new job that I started over 6 months ago. It has been the most stressful time in my life. I have lost weight, lots of it, for all the wrong reasons.

The support from my hubby has been great. The last 6 months was good for my marriage, I think we passed the 7 year gl(itch) that was there from year 2. I must admit ny husband is not the easiest person to live with. You just have to learn when to keep your mouth shut and wheb to let it all out. I wish somebody told me that before I got married. I had to grow up first.

I am not a person who gives up. I am also not a person who stays in stressful situations for too long.

Life will get better and only I can make that happen.

Saturday blog

My favourate author Dana Snyman says that when it comes to love advise he will rather ask a barlady than a pshycologist, because unlike pschycologists some barladies have experienced the dark side of life. They have been through it all.

No I don't have troubles with l-u-r-v-e. I just thought that was the truest thing I have ever red. People need practical advice - no good on going by the theory of it all. The good news is I went on Kalahari the other day and saw that 2 of his new books has been put on. What is different about him is that I find the time to read, its not a book that you can really leave on your bedside table for long.

Work is stressful. But I will find a way to cope. Nobody said it was going to be easy. The good thing about it all is that I amaze myself every day, and that is how I know that I am growing. This is about stepping out of your comfort zone every day.

Where there is a will there is a way.

Another blog, another week

Eish peeps, I wish I could blog more. I hardly have time to read. Work has been busy. Every day is different. I don't think it can ever be the same, every day you deal with different people, and get yourself into different situations.

Tonight I have put the kids in bed early, poured myself half a glass of Old Brown Sherry and rushed to the computer. We do have internet at work but we use it for research reasons only and I have so much paperwork and writing every day I hardly get time to do anything. I do print emails and type quotes, but that is it. There are 3 A4 diaries on my desk on which I record information that are given through on the phone. 3 Diaries? You might ask. Exactly what I thought the first day I walked into my new office. There are good reasons for all of them. Trust me.

*Yawn* *Yawn*

I need to check my facebook updates before I crawl in to bed. Is it summertime yet? This winter is so p**ing me off.

A new week, a new job

It’s been a busy week at my new job. I learnt so much. Everybody is so kind, all my fears are out the window, for now. We have 2 deadlines every day, so it keeps you on your toes. The lady that is showing me around is so patient. It is hundreds of little things that you need to remember every day, and she said I can relax it is only my first week.

I got 2 compliments though.

I miss my friends at my old company, but we keep in touch via email. I was supposed to go out with the girls to watch Eclipse next week on the 30th but that did not work out quite well. So I guess I will stay at home and snooze in and catch the movie at a later stage.

This first week at the new job was a little bit overwhelming. I am going to visit my best friend tomorrow and we will have some baby talk to take my mind off things. I hope the wind is not too cold, I don’t take the kids out if the wind is too cold.

Well one week down, many more to go. I am happy here. This is what I wanted.

I am hoping to blog more regularly as the time goes on.