A handful of rice...

It was at one of the many cell groups I have attended about 8 years ago that I came across an interesting lady. It was just before my wedding, and being the terrible cook that I am, I was stressed about what to cook every night for my husband-to-be.

She said not too worry, that the golden rule was the more you cook of one thing the better you become at mastering that dish. A hand full of rice for every family member was another helpful hint.

I feel like running to my sister when things go terribly wrong in the kitchen. But it’s not like she lives next door so thank heavens for cell phones. I don’t know what makes you a good cook. How do you develop a passion for food? I think she just payed more attention to the detail while my mother was in the kitchen. Maybe I was daydreaming when I was supposed to pay attention.

I guess some people are good at everything - the Martha Stewarts of the world.

Some days I really wish I had an Italian in the Cupboard…

Grade 1...The School readiness list

I got the list of activities that they check for School readiness. Oh my word. That is all I can say. Some of the things (like writing 1 to 100 and writing your full name) I only got taught in Grade 2 or 3. But it is a good thing, so we can practice at home, all the 100+ activities that are on the list. Some of it I am not worried about, like the Shapes and the Colours and Body Parts.

Well good luck to me, good luck to us all. Grade 1 here we come.

I’m off to another interview scheduled for 12:30. I am honestly not in the mood, because the lady that phoned sounded like someone they got off the street – weird for a well known Company like that. I hope I am not going to waste my time.

I guess it is worth a shot. And I get to go home early and spend time with my adorable son. Every morning at 4 he decides that he is ready for the day. Babies have biological clocks hehehe. But by 7 he is exhausted again and fall asleep in the car on the way to his caregiver.

I'm off..have a good one people.

Hey preggie tummy...you're leaving??

I tried on my no. 12 work tops that used to fit this morning – and what do you know it fit. I tried this about 2 months ago but it was all tight around my shoulders and the buttons wouldn’t even tighten around my waist, because my post-preg tummy was still showing off (hey I was proud of it till the very end).

It must be the Femodene I started taking about 2 months ago. I have always lost weight on it and did not gain an inch when I took it before. Well that is one of the nice after effects of the contraceptive, for me anyway.

The Scale showed I lost 3 ½ kg. And trust me I don’t step on it much, because I don’t like seeing the 10kg that I still have to loose before I have my pre-preg body back. Who does? Weight Smeight.

Well this was a nice surprise.

Start to the week

Another Company has phoned to say that my application was unsuccessful. So I smile, and say thank you for the opportunity. Yes I am a bit sad, but I am just human and things like this do affect me in a way. One day I will look back on this and see that it was just another NO.

I know, it is hard to stay positive. You just go on, and keep your chin up, because you know that all good things come in good time. This is not the end of the road. Hey, if I could get pregnant after 5 years of trying I can find the perfect job.

At times like this I only have to look into my childrens eyes to find the joy in life again. They are the reason why I am here. If I can love them as long as I live then nothing else matters. First I am a Mother, and then my Career follows.

Somewhere out there, there is a place under the Sun. For me.

Ahh...Cape Town Memories..

I came across these photos today. It was taken in Cape Town 2 years ago this April. That was the most fun I ever had in my life. There is a family reunion this year and they can surely count us in.

Well we were full of wine of course, but in a jolly good mood. My cousin (Sam)antha is in the middle, with me to her right and my sister at the left. I don’t think we slept at all. We were giggling the entire time. My cousins BF thought it was a good time to grab the camera…well what do you know.

I can’t wait to see the family in Cape town again. Maybe it is the Cape Town air, I don’t know, but I am always on a high when in CT. Too much fresh air and Wine you would think. LOL.

Back to school..and Christening plans

So it is back to school for me in 2 weeks. Somehow I have other worries than school. I wonder if my husband will be able to run the normal Saturday morning chores for the 5 hours that I will be away. Well like I have said before, there is no time to get into it. The problem is he has 2 other options – MIL or my sister. They would be happy to help out – how convenient.

My life is slowly starting to get together now. I wanted to go back for so long and last year when I made the decision I fell pregnant. Truth is, I wanted a baby more than anything, and I was willing to sacrifice everything so I put the studies on hold.

I have been waiting for some positive phone calls, but don’t intend to waste my energy on it. I am only human. I get disappointed at times, but then I find the strength to go on.

I have requested a Christening document from the church. If all goes well the Christening will be the first sunday of March. MIL already asked if she could bring him in, and of course I said yes. I am kind of looking forward to it.

The mistake...

Yesterday in the waiting room at the Pediatrician I peeped at the lady sitting next to me’s baby boy. He looked so small for six weeks. Her little girl was sitting on her lap. So I said that it’s good to have one of each, the boys are just a little closer to your heart.

The words that came out of her mouth send shockwaves through me. She just blurted out that he wasn’t supposed to be there, that he was a mistake. I was a complete stranger, but I still had the heart of a mother.

I have seen the tears in some women’s eyes when they talk about waiting to get pregnant - the one thing that leaves a special mark in your life as a woman. And now I have experienced the opposite. I don’t know how much I was supposed to read into those words. Is it something that you just tell someone you have never seen in your life? Is it something that you tell your child when he is old enough to understand?

The dr called our surname and I had to say something that I hoped would stay with her:

“Like I said, boys are closest to your heart.”

Once I heard these words: People that say "it just happened" have been trying for a long time. I will find comfort in that.

Ok..I am an addict

I couldn’t sleep again so since Saturday I have read most of Eclipse, I think I have 100 pages left that I will easily finish in 2 days. I also got Breaking Dawn from my sister, and after that book I have to sit and wait for the movies to come out. I got parts of the new book she is writing now out of Edwards perspective – Midnight Sun.

What am I going to do when I have read all the books and watched all the movies – when it is all over. NO Twilight?? It is like so addictive. I can only wish that Stephanie Meyer gets creative again – another story is ok I can live with that. I doubt that someone like her will ever come along again – in this lifetime anyway.

LOL listen to me.

I'm a hopeless romantic I guess.

Friday blog

The insomnia has once again kicked in. I haven’t slept the past 2 nights. At the end of this month it is back to study once again, and I might be in a new job as well. Hubby gets his new car today, because the current car is giving us too many problems. He has spent R20 000 on fixing it last year and now we are back to square one. I hate fighting about money but hey what am I supposed to do, sit back and relax and watch our money go down the drain?

I am going to see my best friend tomorrow; we haven’t seen each other in a while and tomorrow are the only time we could put aside for a visit.

People are still phoning to invite me for interviews, some people want you there this minute and for me it is almost impossible. It’s not like I drive around in Sandton everyday waiting for someone to phone me. This one woman who actually cancelled an interview the other day phoned me about 20 times yesterday while I was at the Pediatrician with Corne’. My phone was on silent.

Some of the jobs that I do apply for has over 400 hits, and that is in an hour. It is a war out there I tell you. I have never lost faith, and I know that one day it will be my turn to stand out from all the others. It is sad that so many people are looking for work. My lecturer in Damelin mentioned once that for every job, there are 17 unemployed people that will do your job better if they get the chance to. That’s why you have to be the best in what you do.

This morning I thought if it will be possible to be excited and sad at the same time. I will get the long awaited phone call but on the other hand I would have to say goodbye to wonderful people that I have worked with for ten years. You leave a part of your life behind. It (the building and people) will always be in your memories till you die.

I am looking forward to seeing my friend tomorrow. I need some distraction from all this.

Well that is it from me, Supermom, (b)logging of on this friday of February the 12th.

A place called home

I suck at interviews. I handled all the questions I thought they would ask well, but when they asked me where I lived I F-R-O-Z-E. I had to think about that one…

You are not always prepared as you think you are. Maybe it would have come to me more easily if I have lived here my whole life – but I didn’t. I have been here 14 years and still I struggle to remember all the areas Joburg has to offer, plus all the sub-neighborhoods etc etc. Roodepoort alone is as big as the little town where I come from.

Well then, on the other hand I will stand out as the girl who had to think about where she lived. In the end it doesn’t matter where you live, or where you think you live, in the end you have to be able to be an asset to the company.

It’s closer to home – wherever that may be. :-)

Note to self – next time you prepare for an interview – ask yourself where you live.

Another day in interview town

I have another interview lined up for tomorrow and another one next week. Nobody said that this was going to be easy. Well like I said, every opportunity knocks and you have to take it.

I miss writing blogs about the past. Writing blogs in the present sucks.

I finished New Moon and is halfway through Eclipse – I know just for your file 33. MIL moved in for another 2 months, so don’t ask me where I find the time for all this. Corne is going for his routine check up at the dr and I have to fit an interview in all in one day.
It’s hectic man.

Wish me luck as you wave me goodbye

The song

The song that relates to me the most?


Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanting to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

Chorus:
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away


Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And break away

Chorus

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, break away

Chorus 2X

Break away
Break away

The interview

Oh yay, I get to go to an interview in Rosebank tomorrow. I normally jump at every opportunity I can get – so I am greatful that the company invited me. I don’t put my heart into everything, because I know there are 17 other people who are also going to the same interview and one of us will be THE ONE. May the best candidate be just what they want.

I have been to dozens of interviews and I have learnt allot from each and every one – so bottom line – it helps if this is not your first (and only).

A couple of weeks ago I applied for a vacancy at a Law Firm. The add asked for a photo and I do not know why I did not see that part of the add – I normally go through all the adds carefully because you get weirdos out there – trust me, and I do not apply for any add that asks a photo (wtf you can see me in person!?). So the actual Lawyer himself (I googled his name) sent me an e-mail from his blackburry and asked for a photo. I replied that he should ignore my CV because I did not see the part where they requested a photo. So he asked why and I told him to get lost I am not auditioning for a Reality Show.

Anyway to make a long story short – this guy gave me chills. He kept on sending me e-mails after I said IGNORE my CV. About a week ago his PA (a.k.a skelmpie probably) sent me an e-mail asking if I am still interested in the job. And now the photo did not matter. So I said sorry I was never available.

Weird people, I tell you. Like my soul is for sale.

Ok..I'm a Twi-hard

After going to the movies and watching New Moon the other day, I am reading the Twilight books all over again. I did not pay much attention to Twilight when the movie came out, but New Moon certainly got my attention. It’s been 3 days and I have 20 pages left of Twilight.

My sister said that I should read the books and then I will get a clearer understanding of Edward. I must say that I can’t put it down, I have been reading at work when my boss is out.

She is my kind of writer. It’s like I have been waiting my whole life for some book or movie like this. I am sad that it will end at Breaking Dawn – at least it will be split up in 2 parts but still – I want more of Edward and Bella!!!

I am happy to say that all has been sorted out at home. I could not help myself any longer and phoned her. Sometimes I am forced to get involved – and then I do without thinking. Well I feel better now. Bitch.

Nothing like Twilight to take my mind off things.

My personal space

Yesterday a woman at my husbands work phoned and asked if he could take her sisters child to school in the mornings because she leaves at six.

So I completely FLIPPED. Sorry but she must keep on looking. What makes her think she can snap her fingers and my husband just has to jump up and down? He is nobody's personal chauffeur.

I am so close to phoning her today' but out of respect for my husband and his work I won't. Well at least he knows how I feel about this.

You see the million dollar question is -
where was I when everyone became so close? You really have to know someone well if you are going to trust them with your child, right? Now that is what we call a snake in the grass people. I can guarantee you my instinct has always served me right.

I have confronted him about this the moment he told me. I let him know that the first morning he drives that womans child to school I am moving out. It sounds a bit harsh but if you are married to me and your commitments are elsewhere you might as well live somewhere else.

Well I am fuming - for today at least.

You don't want to be married to me right now - trust me.




















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